Did I find the dream?
I know I live with my head in the clouds. I know I have been hearing that for most of my life and most of my family telling me "that sounds lovely Meg, but what about reality?" I think I stopped saying everything on my mind slowly over the last several years. I am not sure I was ever quite ready for reality, ever ready to live the life that was there for me to live. I tried, I think I whole heartedly tried, I worked 7am till 8pm most days, sometimes later, I went to school for 6 years, I bought nice things, I learned about love and partnership and I ate dinner with my parents on Sundays. I paid my bills on time, I never treated anyone a way I wouldn't want to be treated and I always tried to be honest. Then I would just go...into my head. I found the pattern. It took me many years, but I have finally found the pattern. It happens when I am scared, when I am sad, when I feel things shifting and I don't know if I have the reigns, it happens when I am bored, or when s...